Amateur Travelling

I am feeling so fresh and energetic while writing this blog.

Why?

Umm…Because I’m going to write about my recent experience.

Experience…of traveling…Not just travel but…a solo travel..!!

Yeah, so as it’s clearly visible it was my first ever solo trip and that to unplanned one.

My travel destination was Pushkar.

Pushkar—Holy Land

One day I was sitting in the living room at home and was watching television along with my parents.There was this news about Pushkar Mella and its popularity.Suddenly the child in me started knocking and tapping inside my head and that time only decided to visit the place, experience the essence of the fair and also to relive the childhood memories.

Being the Rajasthani myself, was aware of the people, culture, and population of the destination so I safely planned a trip to this place and packed my bags.

Next morning, took the local roadways bus and reached Pushkar at around 12’O Clock in the noon.Reaching there was not the task, the actual task was to hunt a place for me. I didn’t mention it was only for one day and night.

Wonder why so… because… a lot of people had come down to the town to participate in the fair which resulted in jam-packed bookings of hotels and guesthouses.

I decided to roam around a bit to plunge the feel of it. Had brunch with desi tea at the nearby restaurant.After such a relishing food, headed towards my ultimate mission …to hunt a place for night stay.

After few inefficacious attempts, finally, managed to get me settled in a room of the small guesthouse.As soon as got freshened up, without wasting more minutes, directly went to the famous religious place “Ghat” where Indians takes Holy Bath.The place was so beautiful surrounded by a small lake.I so wanted to sit there and enjoy my time at such a serene place for few hours, unfortunately, the filthiness and foulness of the place did not allow me to do so. Soon it was the dawn time, the sun was setting slowly leaving it imprints on nature.

Later on, took a ride on the camel safari and rambled around the city.

As the night appeared, I could feel the chills on my body, I wrapped myself with the beautiful stole which I bought from the local market and move ahead with my plan of witnessing the famous music concert.People were there in huge number.Many young students groups, couples were gathered there to be the part of folk music.I enjoyed each and every beat of the folk music.

By the end of the concert, I was filled with peace and happiness within.With the smile on my face, left the town with lots of memories to be cherished in life.

The strange part is to see how the peaceful town converted into the most noisest city within few hours.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

#Riskshaw walas are new Ambani’s#

Demonetisation !!

There is much hype about the Modi Government from the day BJP has won the elections and Mr.Narendra Modi has taken the charge of our nation as a Prime minister.

Many people do appreciate his efforts and there are people who constantly looking for the opportunities to degrade him and his actions.

Amidst of all this, an announcement came which has shaken the entire nation.The day was 8th November 2016, that was the beginning of a month and people were busy completing their monthly monetary task.

The announcement was made to abandon the Indian Rupee Note 500 and 1000.By that time, Indian were used to these two paper currencies for fulfilling their daily needs.Unexpectedly, they find themselves with no money in their pockets as if all the currencies converted into ashes and blown away.

Everything came to a halt.All the dealing which included the huge amount of transactions got affected.Each and everyone got badly affected by this impulsive act of our government.Banks worked round the clock to pacify their customers and walk through this phase as smoothly as they could.

Many people have seen stars at noon with this movement as they got caught by the officials.

However at the end of it, everyone and everything settled down with lots of hustle and we being Indian, back to our normal life with the new ray of hope in form of new currencies.

 

 

 

 

!!Beautifully Begins!!

I just had reached home after a long trip.

I was happy and content with myself at that point in time.

I could feel the enthusiasm within me, the energy to get a refreshing start.

I clearly remembered the day, when the father had asked to get through the marriage proposal which was going to be a life changer for me.

I was not in the mood to go through the same procedure over and over.I was too occupied with myself to get me engaged into yet another mind scratching activity of hunting suitable match for me and for my family.

Somehow I managed to delay the opportunity of life.

However as saying goes …

Whatever meant to happen,will happen

And the day came when I had received a call from him to initiate the process of arranged marriage.

Yes, It was all started with an arranged married setup.

We both were not at all interested to get into married life and be settled.It’s because of the family we got ourselves indulge in the call.

We had started our journey as two strangers, then gradually from acquainted, we had become friends by the end of our first official meeting.

We had felt the essence of friendship on Coffee Date.

It was the evening date.We both were having our own apprehensions about the upcoming event which was going to be a prominent one for rest of our lives.We have discussed most of the stuff from friends to movies, music, travel, food, career, family and what not but after spending approx 3 hours the lingering feeling was still there.We both were longing for some more and more…

In the blink of an eye, the day came with so many beautiful colors and the ray of hopes.

We both were the point of attention for rest of the audience.Amidst all the panicking, the feeling crop up where I have imagined butterflies in my stomach and that was the amazing moment.

You know when he actually took my heart away from me..not the time when he said he is happy to have me as a partner, not the time when he waited to have a date with me, not when he held my hands for the first time…that was the moment

When he told my mother that he is her son and not son in law .

Why?

Because he met her on the event day and he just got few hours with her and I have felt the honesty and truth beholding his words.

After that everything has changed in life.Mornings get the purpose and nights get the dreams to be fulfilled together.

The irony is life has actually taken a dramatic turn when we both together have started falling for each other every single day at the same point in time…We are going to complete one month of togetherness and we already have our share of sorry, please, thank you, lots of laugh and love.

And there is another beautiful universal truth.

Everything that has happened, Happened for the reason.

We are meant to be together and we are destined to be soulmates for this life.

Love is our true destiny.

We do not find the meaning of life by ourselves alone.

We find it with another.

 

 

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No One Works, Operation Does!!

Blog update is just an insight into the Corporate Operations World.

Yes, It does exist as a separate entity.Entirely different from “The Corporate World”.

In operations, HR people ask for Graduation, MBA, CA, CFA, LLB, B.TEC and all kind of synonyms as a qualification.However, they don’t discriminate among these for a job profile.They always have a job profile which can be fulfilled by all those who has completed their studies through the set pattern of Indian Education system.

Operation’s people are those people who work as a spot boy to enhance the beauty of a seasonal limelight…I know I just make a satire,I m just trying to give a bit of glamorous spice so that it can look like ” the Corporate World”.

Profile consists of all kinda work beginning from the allocation of stationery, struggle for seat arrangements , do the tango with computer systems to make them work and finally the battle between two sorts of thoughts in mind.

One thought want to focus on those excel sheets which data needs to be arranged and fixed so that built-in formulae can do work perfectly and convert this raw data into a report which require being sent out to those people who actually present the same in front of the stakeholder of the organization.

And the other thought is very human.Now if I say human, that actual means the only living being present on the floor among all the other human being longing for conversations, gossips, eye contact, new stories to be form, old stories to die down.Conversations give aroma of aspirations…aspiration to change the world, aspiration to fight for all odd and injustice, aspiration to break the chain of monotonous life.Gossip about the girl next door, the rumored couple, cooked up the extra-marital affair and of course very own Bollywood flavor.

On Diwali Eve, India and on Christmas Eve,whole world celebrates the festivity with family and friends,one can still find operation’s people sitting in a offices,tossing on their chairs ,eyes glued on the screen ,reasoning  out with whole universe  for such melancholy.

Amidst of all these struggles in routine life, working like zombies, churning between the shifts, operation’s people  feel pride in their work .How?Because after all said and done,Operations are the backbone of “the Corporate World” and people get victory every single day!!

Treasure Beneath Inner Self

 

 

 

Experience of life….to be with oneself.

I was hesitating when I was traveling on a bus to reach my destination that day.

I was unsure about everything which going to happen for next 11 days.

It was a noon time when I reached there and done all registration work. I got settled into my room which was going to be my place for next days, the place who’s going to witness all which no one else could.

After getting acquainted with the room, I went outside to look around the campus and it’s peaceful.I had my lunch and it was nice. I met few of my co-inmates of the campus who were going to stay and experience the same solitude, same silence as me.After greeting and meeting with everyone and an introduction group meeting with the teacher, it was the time.

Time to surrender me to noble silence, secluded myself from the real world , to experience something which was peaceful and relaxing, which I have not done in my lifespan.

I went inside the hall and sat on the assigned place which was on the floor with single light blue color sheeted mattress and a sitting pillow beneath.I was skeptical if I can sit on the floor having crossed legs without support because of my soar backache and knee pain. Amidst of my thinking , I heard welcome note and instructions on speaker given by legendary teacher (dhamma guru).His voice was so poised and calm which indicated that I was there for some serious business and not just for the mere experience. After one hour we dispersed to our allocated rooms to sleep and sink in the feeling of next coming days, this marked the end of the day and all the lingering thoughts.

Early morning, I got amazed to witness the morning moonlight with the bedsheet of shining stars and I made a point to witness them every morning till I was there before getting into complete seclusion.

Mornings are beautiful is a fact, however, mornings are so silent is what I have experienced. When I tried to get myself up and ready for two hours concentration exercise, I found myself on the difficult road when I had to struggle between naps and meditation with soar body aches.This struggle had become the regular routine and couldn’t succeed until the end and this accomplishes me to be not a morning person 😉

The thing which kept me going with the struggle was the Morning Tea which I used to get as soon as I entered the living area for breakfast after the morning session.

Ahh…tea…true energy booster for me and the walk after into the campus surrounded by beautiful Aravali hills. Chirping birds were the only source of music allowed to listen and trust me that’s soothing…

After completing the daily morning chores ( included cleaning of the room and washing of the clothes along with the shower ) again go back to the complete aloofness and to do the actual work for which I was there.

Initially, the struggle span was large as not only I had to struggle with body demons but with thoughts as well which were bound to come like a pinball.However slowly and steadily I could see myself getting over with the struggle span and see the things which actually resided within me day in day out.The way I reacts externally is nothing different what I had experienced within.The facts which I thought defines me as a person were not just the assumption anymore but I had actually seen them brewing inside.Be it on the lower side, I got to know myself that I reacts in the same manner to the outside world as I’m dealing with my inner self.

In real I have experienced all these emotions within when I actually sitting on the meditation couch and dealing with the mind to not get wander and lost in the puddle of all nonsensical thoughts of past or future. How?

For initial days, whenever I used to sit for meditation with the determination to not get distracted by anything be it bodily and mind requirements or any outside distractions, I failed badly  as some thoughts or the other kept on ringing in my head and if somehow I managed to off guard those wandering thoughts, then my back and knee used to called me back from my inner world and I got frustrated and upset with myself.I found myself on low willpower whenever I used to give in easily to my bodily requirements.I have seen being very impatient and hard to myself whenever I did not get which I was supposed to.At times, when I could not concentrate even a bit, I have found myself being restless and distraught.

I have encountered my fear(fear of being caged may be as someone was badly holding me from my neck and arms and there were no way I could free myself from that invisible power) in the dream which I clearly remember, eww ..that was scary, has shaken me upside down and I couldn’t get back to sleep that night.The morning after, I couldn’t meditate as I was disturbed because of the dream, later I discussed with the mentor.As per her interpretation, it could be the negativity beholds within inner self and as the outburst of this exercise of purification it comes up in this way in order to hinder what I was doing in order to remove impurification from the mind(soul).I got one more alike dream night before yesterday where I felt cat was on me, near to my face and sucking my right hand’s fingers and held me from my neck so I couldn’t do more except the shouting.But soon I realized it was just a dream and then I checked my room and slept afterward…:)

Self-assumption leads to distraught and frustration.…whenever I was not able to meditate and wanted to get up and roam around i used to assume that it just few more minutes and after that bell would be rung and I will be out for small walk and with this thoughts I used to get frustrated and distracted with actual work of meditation and got so devastated and then when actually I got up for a break ,i felt like a loser as this break was kind a reward for atleast trying to meditate which is more like a Tap.

As part of the schedule, we had to sit in one single posture for one hour to build up the strong and determined willpower and that time I had experienced the level of my willpower which was pretty average.I’m still trying to work on this to increase my willpower.

The thoughts which wandered around were mainly from three sources: past happenings, future wishes, and my wants.

Well Well, amidst of all these realizations, I have realized few more things and that is I can believe on myself...yes the way I was progressing there day by day it was all because of my inner self, my mind helps me to do so..Now I can rely on myself for things at least I can try on my own..so yes I have started believing in myself and have faith in me(a bit though).

I have experienced the ounce of peace inside me and that moment is heaven trust me.

And not the least, it has cured my soar backache to some extent.yeyy

This whole experience was very fruitful for me.It taught me the technique which helps me being remained equanimous in life whatever be the circumstances( be it craving, aversion, attachment)

Equanimity is a bliss, not an easy habit but I‘m trying!!

 

 

 

 

 

Unexplored Treasure

 

I took a long breath before pouring out my thoughts here.

So many thoughts are wandering in my tiny mind with no intentions to stop anywhere soon. I try to pen a few of them (on which I get a hold of.)

Sometimes I ‘m scared ..scared from ‘complete silence which can turn into loneliness’.I’m already loner and now when I’m going to experience which would be the surely lone time I’m bit hesitant.

Do I really want to do this, do I really want to be isolated at this time, at this phase of life.Is this really required for move forward in life?

People say this is the right decision which I have taken(not exactly though, but this time I’m trying to own my decision, no matter in whatever circumstances I had taken them). It might change my life a bit and might show new directions for life which are still not discovered.This might help to get in touch with deeper self with whom I want to meet for so long.

It’s true that sometimes I did wish to be isolated from my world, to know my own self and now when I certainly got a chance then why I have become skeptical about the same?.Why I’m not happy and excited about this experience of life?.Why I have no enthusiasm for getting what I wish?.

Maybe I’m in confusion, in doubt & in dilemma because this is the real situation which is in front of me and which is required to tackle by me and only me as an individual, as (Priya).

There will be no one around me whom I can trust, no one will be there to guide me, to pacify me, to strengthen me, to support me, to love me, to need me, to miss me, to take care of me,to protect me, to scold me, to pamper me, to tease me, to get angry at me.

True there will be lot more people around me who will be from a different culture, religion, region ,belief and they all will be human beings from the planet earth and is the only thing needs to be consider, however we have created our small world on this big planet ,we actually forgot to trust others . At least this is the case with me.Though I have grown into a mature adult, still I don’t know how to trust other people without consenting family.Till date, I look up to my people to tell that I’m doing Just Okay and I can stay with totally unknown people around me.

Surely if I will surpass this experience then I would achieve something in life and make it worthful. My family won’t be near to me physically but I will be drawing strength from them.They are and will always be my power, my strength of pillars.

And last and foremost thing God will always be there on my side, holding my hands, guiding me from the darkness to the path of light.

I just hope in this journey of complete Isolation, I would find my belief and hope in self.

Signing Off, Take care, Doodles,

Will gonna miss my family,ma-pa, my sister’s, my jiju’s, my kidos badly…

PS: It’s only for 10 Days 🙂

Unsure

Back again to stay for long.

Today as well I’m unsure about what I’m going to pen down.Unsure about where my thoughts leading me.Unsure what is still stuck with me.Unsure about myself and life.

I really don’t know why I’m stuck up with so much confusion, negativity within.A thing which amazed me is that after so much wandering still, I’m stuck on the same place holding same unknown and invaluable grudges with my life, with me.

I have started hating everything around me and within me.I have become oblivious to the world around, like a lifeless body roaming around.

It just only time is flowing like a floating river with its own up and down rhythmic movements unable to move me a bit like a rigid mountain.

I’m unsure about my life events, unsure of every step I’m taking toward positive life.It just takes one negative thought to bring me back to my own shitty shell of negativity.

I have a fear of doing anything which takes up all my strength, all my willpower, all my hardship..fear which is of I’m unsure about.

Unsure —ahh how much I want to remove this word from the dictionary only I know…

Hope… one day I can convert few of my unsure into sure shots…

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